It's been a very long time since my last post. Travelling round Europe, moving into a new apartment and starting a new job have generally not been conducive to keeping a regular blog. However, I'm back! I honestly have missed keeping up this blog, and I appreciate having an online community.
Generally speaking, my life feels very full at the moment, but not in the way I want it to be. My job takes up a lot of my time and it feels as if I do little else. My daily Feri practice has consequently suffered. I leave the house around 7.25 to get to work on time, so I have to get up pretty early (as I have mentioned in my blog previously). However, my intention to do it is still there, but sometimes sleep wins out. Ah well!!
I think my problem is that I am a very harsh personal critic. I set myself high standards and I berate myself when I fail to meet them. After discussing my personal practice with my teachers at the weekend, I realised I'm trying to cram too much into my practice. It feels as if I do a full ritual every day! My teacher Brighde made the point that she doesn't phone all of her family every day, so why would you call on every God and Guardian every day?
Soooo....another revision of my personal practice. I have decided to focus on key foundational practices and be open to a fluid interpretation of personal practice, as and when rites are 'revealed' to me. My foundational practices are as follows: Star Goddess prayer, kala, ha and flower prayers, heart alignment and sitting practice.
We'll see how it goes.
I've been following your blog. I am not a Feri, but I have been working with the blue flame and the image of the Star Goddess, Melek Taus, and Divine Twins, as well as the other gods and guardians. I too have been strugling with my daily practice.
ReplyDeleteThank you for posting this, because I too realize now that I do not have to have a full blown ritual every day.
Sitting and being me for 5 minutes can be my ritual.
I encourage you to keep writing, Leaf. It is hard to find Feri out in the Mid-west, as it seems they are only East and West-coasters. I enjoy your blog. Thank you.
--Satyriscus